“The Prodigal Experience”

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Have you ever experienced a time where you felt lost and confused? I’m sure we have all gone through times of confusion about who we are and what our purpose is. Yesterday I had thought-provoking conversation with a family friend, that inspired me to write this post. Our conversation was about how I chose to come back home with my family, to figure out my life and to feeling like a failure because of that.

See, before moving back home to Dallas, I was in living independently in Houston; I had graduated, and ended up getting a job that I thought was for me, but soon found out that it wasn’t. The company let me go, and I of course wanted to know why because I thought that I was doing my very best…

I was there for exactly a month, and honestly felt like I didn’t belong, I wasn’t sure of my responsibilities at all. I thought that I was just being irrational, so I pushed those thoughts out and tried to keep the best attitude about my new position. The day I got fired was already crap, and I worked a full day *rolls eyes*. I was called into the conference room and let go within 10 minutes. I cried, I mean ugly cried in front of someone who possibly could have cared less about my well-being. I cried because I knew that I couldn’t fight what wasn’t meant for me anymore; it was time for me to go back home and re-access my life.

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My “Prodigal” experience, stems from a biblical story, The Prodigal Son, in which one of the younger sons has to return home after using up all of his inheritance. The father openly embraces and celebrates his son’s return, as he was “lost” and is now “found”. I didn’t have the inheritance to blow, but I did have to return home to get back to my purpose, to get myself together. As I’ve discussed in previous posts, you have to focus on your own path, what’s meant for you, is ONLY FOR YOU.

The conversation that I had with my family friend stuck with me because I knew in my heart of what I was capable of. My friend’s reassuring words, spoke life into me, so much that I am confident in God’s plan for my life. I am not exactly sure of what’s to come, but I am expecting great things. I’ve already been blessed in ways I couldn’t imagine and 2016 isn’t over! Won’t he do it!

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I’m completely open to goodness and the blessings that are prepared for me. I pray that you received something good from this post and that 2017 is good to you.

Thanks for reading loves!

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Self-Care with Spookieloo

Self Care in the midst of bullshittery

 

Hey lovlies! How’s everyone doing today? I hope you all are doing well, because you’re in for a treat with today’s post. I want to engage with you all starting today 8/16/16 through 8/23/16 on how important self-care is, especially if you’re having a hard time navigating life right now. Normally I’m pretty private about my personal life, but in the past couple of weeks I’ve been through an emotional rollercoaster (could be early PMS lol) and I’m tired of always feeling like my emotions don’t matter or that they’re not valid. I’m sure you’ve been there before, it feels like life is just smacking you up and down with no remorse huh?

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This past weekend I went on a date that I thought would be something to remember, and boy was it! Basically the date I went on ended up with me being stranded by the guy that I was a on a date with, he left while I went to the restroom to freshen up. I came back, he was gone, ghost, left without a trace. I texted him, “Hey, you ok?” No reply. So I’m waiting, thinking and then finally came to the conclusion 30 minutes later, that this mofo left my ass (lol I can laugh now thank goodness), so I called and texted several more times, nothin boo. Embarrassed, hurt and angry, I sat there another 20 minutes in shock that this happened, I mean who does that? I eventually and begrudgingly called for an Uber ride, that was the longest and saddest drive I have ever endured.

Anyway fast forward to now, the guy eventually texted me back after I summoned my friends to bug his phone a little (lol), of course he was PISSED that I had something to say after what HE did. *Insert confused look* The conversation lasted about ten minutes, he really tried to hurt me, cut me down because I wanted to know why he would do that. When he said I had “bad intuition” and that he was “miserable” during the date, all I could do was shake my head. None of what he was said was true, which brings me to the point of this post: People’s hurtful words; well hurt, but they don’t have to for long.   

With the amount of frustration that I’ve been feeling towards life in general, and then this tragedy of a date happening, my emotions and self-confidence were shot down a few notches. I can be honest and say that shit hurt, but I engaged in some self-care activities to lift myself back up and will continue to for the rest of this week. Will you join me? Let’s look below!

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I know that was a wild story, but I wanted to share this with you all because it’s important that we bounce back from hurtful words, especially when we know that they’re not true. My method is not the cure all for frustration, but it’s a start in a healthier direction, towards a stronger mindset. Please know and understand that your emotions and feelings are valid, you’re not crazy boo, you got this. I got this.

If you decided to join me today on this self-care journey, remember to use #spookieloosselfcare, so we can help each other out. Well, that’s all for now, enjoy the rest of your day!

xoxo,

Jazz

 

My Worth and My Degree- Is it Worth it?

So it’s late as I write this, precisely 12:28 am as I sip this wine called “Blush”. I am nearing the end of my undergraduate career in the next 2 weeks, which brings me to the topic of my worth in relation to earning a college degree…

Yall, I’m trying to be transparent, this is hard to write as I am in a vulnerable spot (black women can vulnerable right?). I honestly feel as if I should be happier than I am, that I am almost done with college, but yet I’m stuck in limbo about finding a job and hell, finding my damn self. For the past year, I have reflected on this college journey and wondered if it was worth the fighting financial aid, parents, begging professors to bump up your grade so you don’t lose your financial aid so that you don’t get kicked out of school. Who the hell was supposed to tell me this shit would happen? Who would tell me that I had mental breakdown and ended up in the psych ward of the hospital my sophomore year? Who would tell me that I would flunk out, and have to sit out one semester to reevaluate my damn life. Who would tell me that my GPA is the gateway to a better job for a better life? Who?

I know, that’s a lot to unload, but I am tired yall. I’m trying to understand if college was worth all of this strife. This certainly is not to sway anyone from pursuing a higher education, but more to share with you all what comes with it. You will sacrifice sleep, sanity, pursuing your real passions…I say that last part because I had to hold off on what I truly wanted to do, and to be honest I don’t need a degree to live in my creativity. I don’t. What you’re born to do is not something that needs to be constantly taught in a classroom, it’s something that is within you, something that is meant to be shared. Can I say that I don’t like school that much lol?

Anyway guys and gals, that’s my millennial rant.This is what I’m currently going through. Will I get a great job, that pays me well to live comfortably? Will I get this degree that somehow shows my worth? Will I overcome this hurdle? I’m still growing and developing, so I do not have all the answers. I just want to make it across the stage.

Love ya babes.

 

 

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Resisting the Urge to Conform

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Ever since I started dressing myself at the tender age of 7 years old, I have never matched, in fact I would always purposely mismatch my clothes to express how different I was. I didn’t understand the importance of doing that, until now. In a society where trends define who some people are, it’s difficult sometimes to remain, well different. Lately, I have been thinking how I want to live my life. especially since I’m about to graduate college in May. It’s so easy to just want to conform and do what everyone else does, but is that any fun? Nah. I have made my mind up that I’m going to live my the way I see it; no more saying yes to everyone’s request, no more confusing being busy with living a productive life and certainly no more comparing my body to others. I take this approach to my style as well, I like to think that the younger Jasmine remained true to her style, and that makes me smile from ear to ear. I have never dressed to get validation from other people, I’ve always dressed according to what I felt was right within myself. The ripped jeans I have on, are my favorite, I got them from New York & Company a couple years and later decided to cut them up. And those bright shoes? I’ve had my eye on them, they meshed perfectly with this edgy, casual look.

Anyway, there was this book I read last year called You are a Badass: How to stop Doubting your Greatness and Start Living an Awesome Life,”  that woke me up to how I approached life. One quote that stuck with me was that “Our subconscious mind, on the other hand, is the non-analytical part of our brain that’s fully developed the moment we arrive here on earth.” That’s how I want to live my life, I’m usually overthinking something and that is not a healthy way to go about living life. I want to embrace where I am in life, even though I am not certain of where I’ll end up next, I will not conform to that way of thinking anymore.

Thanks for reading loves.

Style Details:

Ripped Skinny Jeans- New York & Company

Olive Green Sweatshirt- Forever 21 Plus

Neon Colored New Balances- Journey’s

Gold Rope Necklace Chain- Fresh Kinks

Cheetah Print Scarf- Charlotte Russe

Gradient Round Sunglasses- Forever 21

Photography by- It’s Sofia Emm

Spring Fling

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This whole embracing your sexy thing is new to me, especially since it’s an untapped concept  that I’ve never explored. I remember being younger, and cringing when spring/summer came, I’d hate wearing anything that was revealing and showed my body. I especially didn’t like showing my arms, they’re kind of flabby and have no definition, but I’m totally ok with that. Funny thing is, I used to never wear styles like this above; this body hugging dress, shows every curve of my body and arms. And those wedge strappy sandals, I would never think to wear them, until now.

At this very moment I’m opening myself up to embracing and wearing more styles like these, I feel and look damn good! My ass looks great, my thighs are juicier than ever and I’m cool with my arms being out and you should too, it’s your body and you should love every inch of it. Have a spring fling with yourself!

Enjoy your body!

xoxo

Style Details:

Stripe Cami Dress- Forever 21

Black Crisscross Bralett- Forever 21

Lace-Up Feaux Suede Wedges- Forver 21

Pale Pink Sunglasses- Fresh Kinks

Nude Clutch- Blue Elephant Boutique 

Photography- It’s Sofia Emm

Hey, Big Sexy!

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I remember one day I was walking down the street, minding my own business, when all of a sudden some man yelled out “Hey big sexy! I see yah!” I kept walking and rolled my eyes in irritation. Why was this grown man yelling at me across the street? I was in my own world, doing me, I didn’t need anyone’s input on my appearance…

Lately I’ve been thinking about embracing my definition of sexy, whenever I see hear or see the word, it’s usually associated with people who don’t look like me. I never thought of myself as being sexy, it’s not the first thing that comes to mind when describing my style. The mere thought of it is daunting, and forces me to be vulnerable which is something I never do.  Embracing my femininity at this point in my life is important, I’m slowly becoming who I was meant to be. I personally don’t believe you have to show off your whole body to be “sexy” but I do love adding subtle touches, such as the black tights to my tomboy style.

Now that I’m 23 and a little more well versed in life, it’s become easier to accept my body for what it is at this moment. I have grown to love the rolls on my back, my dimpled thighs and my not-so-flat stomach. Although I still don’t like it when guys yell “Hey big sexy” or anything else, I also don’t cringe as much when I hear it.

What’s your definition of sexy?

Style Details: 

36 Jersey- H&M “Divided Men”

Black Boots- Call it Spring

Blue Cuff- H&M

Control Top Black Tights- Walmart

Mirrored Cat Eye Sunglasses- Forever 21

Styled by Mikayla Berry (Sister)

Photo Credit: It’s Sofia Emm Photography 

Spotlighting Entrepreneurs Series: Chef K9 of Kick Back Texas

Good afternoon lovelies! I am happy to share with you all my new series of showcasing young entrepreneurs, who are working diligently towards their passions and breaking the mold of what a young millennial should look like. Seeing others my age and older pursue their dreams is inspiring and motivates me to continue on my path and to explore what I love doing. I hope you all enjoy this interview series, as I want to bring together entrepreneurs in uplifting each other to keep grinding!

Please welcome Local, Houston Chef and Caterer, Keenan Thomas of Kick Back Texas:

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JB: Tell us a little about yourself, any quirky hobbies? Where are you from?

KT: My name is Keenan Thomas, best known as Chef K9, I’m From Houston Texas , 24 years young with amazing energy and I’m very ambitious. I like to cook,  paint, freestyle amongst friends and come up with great ideas that seem too crazy to comprehend. A lot of people tell me I have an old soul. Mainly because when it comes to feeding friends and family, they can’t leave my house without eating, lol

 JB: How did you start cooking/catering?

KT: I started cooking at the age of nine. I was in my grandmother’s kitchen, she got me started early! My first dish I made was eggs and rice. She always would make that for breakfast, sometimes dinner. Eggs and rice got us through some tough times if you know what I’m saying. She showed me how to make it. Over time I began to add my own flair to it. By age twelve I started making own recipes. I pitched an idea to my uncle about a buffalo wing that was like no other. A turkey wing that was tossed with buffalo sauce. I gave it a name and everything, it was called Buff Buffalo Wings. My uncle gravitated to the idea and acted fast on it. That night he made it for the family and raved over it. Really I was just a kid playing with my food. Where I realized that this was something that I was destined to do, was in the 11th Grade around testing time. All the kids at the school would go to this sandwich shop in the morning for breakfast until the staff put an end to the kids walking off campus. So a bulb clicked in my head like I should do this. So I hopped on it. That day I told my fellow class mates that I would be having pre-ordered breakfast sandwiches for sell and collected my money. I had about 30 orders that one day spent about 20 dollars on the items and sold them for 3 dollars each. That was 40 dollars a day for the rest of the testing week. I profited almost 180 dollars that week off something I didn’t mind doing for free. That was how I first got into catering and knew this was something for me.

 

JB: What’s the meaning behind “Kick Back Texas”?

KT: Kick Back Texas is a way to bring like-minded people together through food, it’s a way that people can network among others knowing that there is enough for everyone to eat.  It’s a way that the business individual can have a good time. Kick Back Texas hosts creative events and creates the environment. We strive to make your experience a moment to remember. We make sure that your five senses are pleased. As well, Kick Back Texas makes sure that you hear good music, that you see the vision come alive, feel good vibrations and smell and taste great food. We’re a Foodies Six Flags!

 

JB: What are your future plans for your business? Do you plan to go global?

KT: I want to travel the world with my brand. My goal is for every house hold to be able to know what Kick Back Texas is. I would only like for this brand to be in Texas. I want it to be known globally but only located in here to make it more valuable, such as making a trip to Six Flags. My ultimate goal is to invest into other businesses and give back to people by opening up a creative center for kids, to expand their creativity. When I was a kid, I think it would have molded me better if I had a place to express my creative side. That’s what I want to give back to the youth.

 

JB: What inspires you on a daily basis to grow your business?

KT: To see people try my food for the first time and see the joy it brings them.

 

JB: Being an entrepreneur, what makes you different from your competitors? How do you approach competition?

KT: I’m my only competition. I’m competing with yesterday, trying to out do tomorrow. What makes me different as an entrepreneur, is that I don’t really focus on others and what they are doing, because my brand is a piece of art and if I get off track I lose focus of the vision.

 

JB:What’s your favorite meal to cook or eat?

KT: That’s a tough question, but if I had to say my favorite would either be shrimp and grits or eggs and rice. My favorite food type has to be Asian. I could eat it everyday!

 

JB:Now it’s your turn to say anything you would like, whether it’s advice, a favorite quote, etc.

KT: Perfect Your Recipe!

WARNING: All of these food pictures will make you hungry!

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                                                                                                *All photos have been linked to their original source*

As always, I hope you all enjoyed reading this post. If you’re looking to connect with Chef K9, please check out his Facebook and Instagram page to book your future catering needs!